The best thing you can do is to keep turning towards the light
I am not a fan of the whole concept of changing yourself because it’s a new year. Thinking that you are not perfect the way you are does not come from a space of love. Which is why this year I want to do things differently by setting an intention from a space of love.
My intention for 2018 is to remember where I come from; LOVE. To remember I come from love and to be more me as possible.
To be yourself is to be as close to love as you can because love is what you come from. Non judgement, fearless, compassionate love.
In order for me to be more me, I have to challenge myself to choose love over fear. One of my favorite quotes from Wayne Dyer says, ” fear knocked on the door, love answered… and nobody was there”. Fear and love do not coexist.
These past few months I have hit a huge block. I was so stressed from spreading myself so thin I left no time for myself. My meditation practice only existed in order to ground myself before teaching and my workouts really just kept me from losing my shit all together. Getting through the next tough THING was my only focus. I had a very challenging semester of school along with teaching every day (sometimes 3 classes per day) and keeping my part-time job so I had some type of normal in my life. Fear kept sneaking in, rather than confronting it, most of the time I would run. Run on to whatever was next and push it down until I had time to deal with it.
Now, I have basically spent the past two weeks on the couch (first because I was sick, then because I still needed rest) and as I am reflecting on those last few months of 2017, I am still proud how I handled the mess I got myself in. Because I opened back up to love, I can choose to forgive myself and move the hell on rather than picking out everything I “should have done”. I am proud because when I noticed myself taking on too much or feeling out of alignment I was so quick to throw on my headphones and listen to an inspirational podcast and go for a walk rather than something destructive. I am proud because I finally started saying no to opportunities I did not have time for that I REALLY wanted to be apart of. I was proud because when clients had to cut down on classes and appointments I did not take it personal and just accepted that it was actually what I needed in that moment and when the time was right we will work together again (already happening!).
Oftentimes fear causes me to shrink down resulting in a loss of creativity and magic. Feeling of dullness and detachment leave me stuck and uninspired to search for the light. I have a funny feeling it’s not just me.
Starting tomorrow, my life will be picking back up again at a fast pace. I will use the lessons I have learned so this time it will be different, I will keep turning to love. Instead of using fear, I will remember love and keep doing what works.
Do you have any new year resolutions? I would love to hear them!